I wish my visualize memory was extremely strong, so that when I am sad, I can reflect and remember exactly why I was so happy in the most wonderful moments of my life.

Of course it's easy to remember a time when you were happy and the bigs moments that have made you happy- milestones and such in your life. But it is the small moments, possibly leading up to the bigger moments, that make me the happiest. It is those moments, those subtle sweet gestures, that I have the most trouble reflecting upon.

When I feel down, I always remind myself to count my blessing and remember what I am thankful for, but sometimes sadness is just hard to shake. I wish I could shake it. I try to reflect on what makes me happy, try to remember, and sometimes the harder I try the farther away those memories seem.

Where did the happy moments go? What happen to the life that use to be so carefree?